Vent

Yea, I been holding this back My mind is racing I'm pacing Can't stand this place that I'm placed in I'm uncontent with this, uh My pen been calling me back But the dream seems out of reach and the doubts they come in waves I'm in stages in empty rooms and my goal ain't no grammy or a check I just wanna be respected I just want this to be heard This a vent I wanna be felt I want you to feel what I feel when I'm crying in the pad And these doubts won't fade And these people talk I'm sick of letting my dreams wait And this classroom ain't no place for me But I sit and wait so patiently Cuz a part of me is wondering if this is something honestly I'm wasting time on ima be another one of these wanna be Soundcloud rappers suffocate with every stroke A piece of me I lose in this and now I'm thinking bout you baby You'll always be part of me They don't catch that they won't get it Never will I'm standing filled with angst Cuz my mind can't interpret what my heart say I'm hard to read like a screen cracked And I'm just as broken they say they support But throw looks when I'm writing this plan it's out my hand But the goal's insight and I trust my God to fill my tank Cuz the road long I'm space bound ain't not run around I'm coming straight been 10 plus years I've quit 10 times Feel like I'm lonely all the time I speak my mind but not enough I'm uncontent with these compliments and the consequences of this addiction's Skepticism it's like I've risen from a slumber Don't do numbers 50 follows I just hope they all feel something when I'm laying verses down I won't change for the crowd Nah man I'll just keep my style Ain't no youngboy, yachty, lil durk I'm spitting words for sanity's sake I'm exhausted all these faces i put on it's like I'm in a one man play They expecting a different face I don't live for they applause but I hate to hear the boos And this side of me's a cynic dirty critic Who won't ever let me feel appreciation for this journey that I'm on So it's hard for me to make these songs And let em flow like a vent... I don't know what I can take it's hard for me to say that I don't wanna be a burnout I can't keep these words out And these doubts I'm filled with Feelings of resentment, cuz Y'all don't feel my heartbeat When I lay my heart out I'm standing on the edge now I'm standing on the edge now