LETTER TO YOU

I gotta, I gotta rap this shit like how, when I was thinking about it Word up Shit deep Uhh Time flies, we could talk about it Bond so strong, can't walk about it I'm just here delivering a message Press send, hopefully you'll get it Communication lost, it ain't sweet Weeks go past, we don't speak Shit crazy, now look at me In this booth, venting to this beat Got me filling words on a sheet Been together since we was teens Strong, independent, black woman Always had a shoulder for your lean After ten years, we called quits. Still, when you call, I'ma answer You and I could've had three children. Then the doctors let you know that you got... Tsss damn Look, doctors let you know you had cancer Swear that shit broke a nigga down But I gotta be strong for you Every time I'm with you, you gon' smile Can't believe they took our little child Can't believe they took our little twins After that, it took a little while Pinched like a needle under skin I can't even lie, that shit is foul Always tell you keep your head high no matter what That's how it go from the start Realize when you grow up with somebody, that it's difficult growing apart Bottle after bottle, getting drunk in the studio Every morning, I feel it Blacking out, bugging, doing wild shit Had a serious talk with my spirit Thinking bout how the cards played out Thinking bout all of the doctors you visit Procedures that they got you going through Life through a crazy audible All of this laying in my mental Zoning out in instrumentals I know that my niggas know me well Get around them, they can't even tell I'ma bring heaven to the room Even when I'm in the pits of hell I could have the world up on my shoulders, but the main goal is to excel For real This is to the heart like a stethoscope Not a need to know, but a get to know When you in the dark, never let it grow When you got someone that'll hold you down, please, no matter what, never let them go Thinking I'm damaged, but you told me you broken I noticed the difference in that Enjoy the times Cause they turning to memories you never getting them back From time to time Like the old times I wish we could sit and relax Reluctant on giving the world to anyone else, because I know it could collapse God gives tough battles to the toughest soldiers I know you feel an attacked I don't think you truly know how strong you are I promise that most would've cracked Under the pressure you face on a daily basis just know you pressure in fact I want to see you happy even if it's not with me Tell me what's bigger than that Let me know Yeah This was a letter to you Signed, sincerely Hill I gotta give credit to you Wishing the best for your future I know you gon' be straight Before you decide to judge a book, go ahead and read any page Are you kidding me? My heart is in my throat at that first beat drop This is a letter to you You have a hell of a poker face, because there are just so many details that I kept from you And the bit that I did let you in on, and the bit that I did let you support me with to know it was received so deeply when you were so solid through all of it it's actually pretty triggering to know what you actually felt There's so much I wish I could take back You know, you don't invest, like, all this time just to end up here. It's stupid But, um, what does it say Love is a journey, right? Love is a journey, not a, not a destination And, um, a few bad chapters doesn't mean it's the end of the book, I guess Yeah