Mental Health

I'm steady tryina find a way To deal with pain That I feel On a day to day They looking up my name Searching numbers But I don't appear in the data base I can't see nobody In my memories All I see is a blurry face I would pay Just to hear your voice I would sit and listen to everything you say But shit I guess everything happens for a reason People change up like seasons Best friends that had your back Have now committed treason You see your homies thieving Blood don't always mean family I'm thankful I'm still breathing I could be dead and buried Sit back and close my eyes I'm losing track of time I want to love my life But I'm just stuck in my mind Said I'm just stuck in my What's left of my mind I'm losing track of the time Boy I been on my grind Like some teeth when they nervous Caught a felony charge They took me down for the ride Boy I'm tryin to shine I'm just finding my purpose I know I'm not the same guy you woulda thought you knew I've came a long way from getting 50 views I've came a long way from getting 5 likes Zero shares, and one "alright" ? Now im getting paid for the open mics You pay for likes And still get no views I had to Open my mind Im ready to reach new heights Now I'm sitting up at a birds eye view So I Sit back and close my eyes I'm losing track of time I want to love my life But I'm just stuck in my mind I'm losing my mind Not feeling myself I push you away when I'm screaming for help Don't know why I did it was feeling compelled I'm destined for greatness but feel like I'll fail I'm tired of seeing my family in jail They running and ducking and bucking at 12 We just gotta play with the cards that were dealt Don't live by the gun boy I live by the belt