Hoodie

Knew I couldn't record without talking bout you So I didn't record, avoid talking bout you You were my mom and my best friend But you always said, your time would end I woke up on Friday, I knew 12 hours later, I made it to you You could barely breathe, we on constant alert Wanted you out of pain, but we were still hurt Midnight came, you still holding Laid beside you, the moment frozen Showed you pictures, of my 1-year-old I left the room, your heart went cold I tried to drink, I barely slept To this day, still hard to accept When your mom gone, you don't know what to do Not a day goes by, I miss you. I was 16 when I started smoking weed I was 17, thought about killing myself That doesn't rhyme, but I had to say it The two connected? Nah, too basic I had everything, that I ever needed But in the world, I didn't feel needed No one would miss me, no big deal Everyone'd be fine, thought that for real I came out of it, happiness set back in When I turned 20, them dark thoughts were waiting The girl I loved, wasn't with me I was all alone walking the small city I have depression, undiagnosed No meds, glad I'm not close But if I'm withdrawn, with my hoodie on Please give me space, don't leave me alone. You called me up, told me that you needed help I told you sit tight, you weren't by yourself You said the drinking was killing you and you wanna stop I wish I knew that'd be the last time we talked Days later, you were in the hospital Mom had cancer, dad needed a doctor You beat cancer, surely you'd beat this While you slept, into your room I crept I held your hand, I know I wept I prayed to the Lord to keep you with me You woke up as I made my move to leave You put your arms up, I couldn't take you with me It was Friday, when I got the call I was numb, from the shock of it all When your mom pass, you don't know what to do Time's passed, I'm still lost without you.