What I'm Living

I gotta go find a beat got it cocked back, gotta let this flow off let it goes off 'Cause I got a lot of thoughts trapped up in my mind I gotta let em loose And just show it off what it looks like when I'm blowing off some steam Literally sweating in this booth in my room Windows closed no air flow because I want it to sound good She can't find food, and she's looking to you But you said you can't, yet your bank account could? Aww wait, did he just, yeah I just went there I've spent some time looking at all our spending errors Here's a kid, walking in the rain with the wet hair No shelter or, you too cynical to give a nickel or a little care She's at middle school At least I don't gotta watch poppa give momma bruises Why does she always go to him if he's popping off abusing Choosing him instead cruising out Don't assume a story till you listen Get mine 'til I get it, imma grind 'til I get So mind your own business 'Cause you ain't living what I'm living So imma get mine 'til I get it, imma grind 'til I get it So mind your own business 'Cause you ain't living what I'm living Yeah, yeah Don't even talk to me Unless you been through what I been through take a walk with me You don't even know what it's like when you can't even talk put a sock in me Poppa say "don't you even breathe or I'm gonna put a glock to mommy" That's why I'm never talking I don't even know what to do I look in the kitchen, what's cookin' on the stove? No it's not food Always whippin' it for the customers because the drugs are the food I want to run away, it's up to me? I wanna give it up to you "Who?" "You talking me?" No I'm talking Jesus If he loved me, he wouldn't let me go through this season Matter of fact, this isn't a season, it's been like this my whole life Ever since I was 9 I've wanted to take a knife and end my life But you're here to tell me that it's alright "Who you talking me?" No I'm talking God Heaven knows the pain & payment on that cross And now I get it, you never said it would be easy As I go through my valley, you're always gonna be with me Get mine 'til I get it, imma grind 'til I get So mind your own business 'Cause you ain't living what I'm living So imma get mine 'til I get it, imma grind 'til I get it So mind your own business 'Cause you ain't living what I'm living You ain't living what I'm living Sometimes it's better if I just stop The talk & see what you gotta say I pray that I get what you talking about I find it's better then using my mouth Uh, these are real stories, real life, real violence Real crime in our cities, what are you gonna do about it? Get mine 'til I get it, imma grind 'til I get So mind your own business 'Cause you ain't living what I'm living So imma get mine 'til I get it, imma grind 'til I get it So mind your own business 'Cause you ain't living what I'm living