Just my thoughts (feat. Boss Game)

I'm tired of walking around Fronting like I'm just fine Like I ain't got murder And suicide on my mind Like everythings good' Like I'm feeling just great Like cheating on my ex Didn't even partake Like I'm so perfect I ain't make no mistakes Like she ain't the reason My heart still aches Like it's only water Ain't no tears in my face Like I really want to be In this god damn place Like it ain't a thin ass line Between love and hate Like three years later I ain't stuck in the same space Like I know for fact Ima win this damn race Like this time It ain't even higher stakes Like I don't want to be In higher place I'm just a log Burning on the fireplace Like I don't wear hats To hide my face Like I sleep so good Inside my place Like it ain't no pain  When I see her face I'm calm cool collected And I can relax Like f*ck that Bitch I don't Don't even Want her backlike I'm all here and I got it all back Like if I get to drinking I  just won't snap. like all that pain' Ain't coming right back' like none Of this is true'and it's just a rap But is it just a rap?   I need to talk to you for a while Can I tell you What's on mind About the pain I feel inside All of this pain Is driving me crazy So crazy Depression is slowly Driving me crazy I try to shake it But comfortable Where its most  shady A grown man Yet I'm still crying like a baby  Knowing damn well' This ain't the way My mom raised me Beggin everyday For something To come and take me Wish that somthing Could just come and wake me Every little miss hap Does more than just shake me I thought I'd be alright Till the day I lost my baby Somehow I felt like She done remade me even chemically Became my lil remedy I called her krytonight Who knew She'd be the end of me I mean' I Should've  known She'd be end of me Ripped me apart And snatched out my recipe Now I gotta deal with him Having What was meant for me Come on man That's fucking crazy I can't beleive I lost my fucking baby I need to talk to you For awhile Can I tell you What's on my mind About the pain I fell inside All of this pain Is driving me Crazy So crazy