My 25th Birthday

Jaded in the room again All alone I'm suffering There's a voice in my head I hear And it just won't let me win Anxiety that makes you weak All my biggest insecurities Tightness in my chest It'll give up when you need us Thinking about different things there's a lot to recollect Sitting down wondering what the hell is next The bigger you get the more there is to protect These chains like trophies dawg I wear em on my neck Like a brand new Patek Think it's less about the value Way more bout respect Saw what you been through And know I don't mean to be too direct But if you give your heart and your soul To everyone The outcome won't be the best You give a little bit to realise there ain't nothing left You gotta fight But what's really worth fighting for Striving for I Ride with my family to the death If they right or wrong That doesn't mean that we ain't gonna right the wrongs Things I should've said in person Instead I put em in these songs Internet people weird There's just something there That don't belong And if you hear these words and you alone Just keep holding on Cause you've been through so much already I know that your strong Had it inside you This whole time It was there all along In fact I think back To the times we didn't do chit chat Any situation we would flip that And break bread like a Kit Kat We'll make it one day that's big facts And don't ever forget that We ain't talking hitting licks We ain't talking no get backs Talking about getting exactly what we deserve Wondering if we should save the world Or just watch it burn Wondering if we should even bother If it's even our concern When one family welcomes a new child Another family mourns Seeing people die and You turn you eye Could be you tomorrow And you lowky terrified Did they do something to deserve it? You still wonder why The innocence that's lost When you look em in the eye Ok let's chill now Not trying to get too political Stories from the past starting to sound a little biblical One thing I learnt And I promise you need to let this one get into you Never let someone else's misery be the reason you're miserable Jaded in the room again All alone I'm suffering There's a voice in my head I hear And it just won't let me win Anxiety that makes you weak All my biggest insecurities Tightness in my chest It'll give up when you need us Topic of discussion Does that mean I'm topical? Rather be in a beach Least something more tropical If you say you got it dawg Tell me who's really stopping you More like a conversation with yourself Or is a cry for help Impossible standards That you put all on yourself Guess it's all part of the process In acquiring wealth Girl I'm telling you them man you keep around ain't good for your health But how you gonna help someone who don't want your help? What you need it for? There's plenty on the plate If you need it dawg There's room for everyone Don't know why you getting greedy for You come to the realization You do want it You do need it though But just because you need it Don't mean someone else Don't need it more Let's talk about the people who really going through evil Talk about the people they really act like is beneath you Just trying to do me not trying to be too conceited But if you don't believe in yourself How can you ask someone else to believe it Can't keep on rushing Appreciate what's around cause nothings certain Try understand it even when I'm hurting Because life don't last forever And one day it'll be all over And that ain't the time to start asking for do overs 25 I still ain't made a mill yet But I don't sweat cause I know my mind brilliant And I know there's a gazillion Different ways that you can make millions and millions All you gotta do is just trill em Gotta work harder Gotta move smarter Sacrifice for what is dear But don't go out a martyr' There's too many choices can't take everyone's advice But never stunt your ideas For something you know ain't right Everything is paid There's always gonna be a price Ideals are like a lantern Don't let em dim your light Told her there's more to life than just The pain and the strife I know it's been a minute Since everything been alright Jaded in the room again All alone I'm suffering There's a voice in my head I hear And it just won't let me live Anxiety that makes you weak All my biggest insecurities Tightness in my chest It'll give up when you need us