Open Letter

Everywhere i go i never feel like myself I'm just tryna fit in i'm tryna be myself Smoke in my lungs takin a toll on my health Depression always lurking man its tekky with the stealth N i don't care about the wealth don't wanna prove my strength i just wanna do this to avoid my death I don't wanna be the best i just wanna be better Consider this shit a fucking open letter I wanna know How not to lose control Of myself I'm tryna keep a hold But i keep falling down this hole By myself Yeah i'm fallin from the top towards rock bottom I was buried while alive but i did not blossom Life keeps beatin me up and i just play possum Had a list of friends until i had to crossem still carrying their weights i cant seem to tossem My problems in my vision but i cant even spot'em Dark thoughts flooding my head and i cant even stop'em my brain so corrupt man it feels like gotham I wanna know How not to lose control Of myself I'm tryna keep a hold But i keep falling down this hole By myself And i wonder why I'm still alive Why do i Can not decide What i want from this life Most of the timeI just wanna die I'm goin insane i'm losing my head I'm tryna focus but i'm losin instead I let go of the pain usin ink n lead But deep in my mind i wanna taste the lead I'm tryna move forward but my feet have bled being held down by all the things they said This weight so heavy and it feels like boulders Add this open letter to my sad songs folder I wanna know How not to lose control Of myself I'm tryna keep a hold But i keep falling down this hole By myself