Not Okay

How did they sleep at night Mama's nervous She leave me so easy Am I gonna be alright No broken heart Girl, I'd be good with you now, now, now, okay I just wanna go fly away Let my feelings go all day away I don't wanna deal with pain no more Hey, yeah, but when the war with your mind off I've been taking that pain to the core Ever since then, I've been scarred I don't try to say hit the car I just stay in the line But you know I had to since I'm back These PTSD made me flex Man, I ain't gon' lie, bruh I really ain't got nothing much to say right now Bitch, I really in my feelings, boy Tell her, man, what she did Man, I don't even know, man F*ck, I'm fucked up Look, like, what could I talk about Y'all ain't even gon' understand I spent ten months in that camp I got home from a wrong one Bullets in me, they set like ten In the house, put it back for a wrong one And how the f*ck you think I feel I'm like, how the f*ck I'm even here I sit and reminisce I call my daddy, say the tears I go bye-bye, I go bye-bye I ain't gon' feel no pain Tonight, I go fly And y'all gon' have to watch me glow Girl, I ain't gon' be here no more Girl, I set my love alight I ain't let you know, glow When you're smokin' out, I feel like I'm on my own Girl, I'll be good with you Now, now, now, okay I just wanna go fly away Let my feelings go part their ways, yeah I don't wanna deal with pain no more Have you ever went to war with your mind off I been takin' that pain to the core Ever since then, I been scarred I done tried sayin' hit the car I just ain't in love But you know I had to send some babies PTSD made me flex