Horizon

I am feeling higher than the horizon Her eyes on me Calling her everyday like a referee I don't wanna stay awake In this light of day Wanting to rot away The world spinning around Got my head down in the ground The pressure pulling me down Heart pulled up and out I just wanted to shout I don't know why you left But it wasn't really fair I don't know why you left me alone there I was so scared Blowing clouds to clear my head Just so I can go to bed All the bad thoughts are coming back Just so I can only see black Feeling like im light headed Just so I can be imbedded Imbedded in my own thoughts Having my mind tied up in knotts My throat feeling blocked My brain feeling locked My nose running and stuffing I feel like I should be huffing This verse is about me being sick Because I am sick, I think i have a cold Or the sickness spreading like mold (Covid)