Addiction

I just wish I was fine, but now I cannot lie My addiction will kill me Last year I was fine, then I crossed the line Now I cannot refind, my way to the light I wish I could just die, right now But here I am taking 20 pills a day Just to stay awake, living no good way F*ck being gay, I'm afraid to do anything I keep a sharpie on me, just to stay high Why do you guys want me to fight I just run and hide, All I do is shrivel and fall apart like gravel They say I ain't gonna a make it And sometimes I believe their shit And sometimes I want to put them in a fit But right now I know this All of them are wrong Cause when I'm on these drugs I just have fun But right now I know this All of them are wrong Cause when I'm on these drugs I just have fun Sometimes I feel awful Life can be a handful Sometimes it is something I cannot handle So I do drugs as a coping mechanism Feeling better off them, is something from fiction But right now I know this All of them are wrong Cause when I'm on these drugs I just have fun Like yah All of you gonna fucking die I will just fly high, On wings of weed Cause everything is great when I vape Tylenol helps the pain And caffeine is like my morphine They're all fiends, disguised as friends Some days it depends, on what happens It's like when I'm rapping With rapid fire bars From T.R.O. JRC Vlogs Not a care, ain't that odd, like I just dont give two shits it was fun But f*ck being dumb, I gotta quit them But I don't know where to begin It's hard try to get it to end I guess I may start in Bag End When I got hooked on caffeine I was just a lil tween Shit's like nicotine, it's real unhealthy After years of it, I still can't say no I wish I could, cause I gotta go I can't take that no more But still go to the store That is next door And drink a bottle, before I even think Blame it on my ADD Sadly I need it for school Used to think it was cool Now all I do is drool but I still have fun with it I know I shouldn't drink it But f*ck it here I am Like yah All of you gonna fucking die I will just fly high, On wings of weed Cause everything is great when I vape Tylenol helps the pain And caffeine is like my morphine And you bitches think nothings wrong with me I'm addicted to everything I just know I can have it no more But I'm still here drinking slow They're all fiends, disguised as friends Some days it depends, on what happens It's like when I'm rapping With rapid fire bars From T.R.O. JRC Vlogs Not a care, ain't that odd, like I just don't give two shits it was fun But f*ck being dumb, I gotta quit them But I don't know where to begin It's hard try to get it to end I guess I may start in Bag End Cause there I know a couple of hobbit Who also have bad habits We meet up and do some shit Who knows we may grab a bitch And they'll eat her like a sandwich But of course there is no dip So no shit we'll just go get her lit So they'll know not to take our shit Now you know that is the life of an addict