Kill Myself (So The Others Will Be Okay)

Everywhere I look I see the fakes on the hook Reeling in, I should know, it's by the book A fisherman casting one last time, one last rhyme Out of time, no reason stay alive If I can't thrive I'll die, ain't no way will I survive I'm a bother to the others They told me to stay in my lane But I never found one to drive in To left to be right, to right to be wrong, inside I've been dying Haven't been happy in years Family said f*ck queers So I was masterbaiting Couldn't take it, all the hating Soon I'll be hanging, ain't know ones fault but mine Walking along a fault line Knew I'd fall with time, that's all I do Switch drugs for cuts, cuts for drugs A caffeine fiend Stay awake all night cuz I'm scared to sleep Cut me till I bleed, ain't nothing I believe Live life to the fullest, well I did it It was so vivid, happy child hood, fucked up the rest Ain't no way I'll take the rest They'll have to put me under arrest They told me to go date, but when I do they say I failed them I'll ask if they hate me, the answers is probably Hate the sin love the sinner, makes me feel like a winner Soon I'll be a killer, a blood spiller Take some drugs eat a 9 Miller All in the hope they'll be okay When I'm gone, they'll know me as the gay Who begged to stay but they said to go live in decay That's my mental place I was tired of the pain Tired of being told I'm shit, everything I do was negative Maybe they'll stop being insensitive, after they lose me But who knows, we know they never gave sympathy So you can know you were the end of me Everywhere I look I see the fakes on the hook Reeling in, I should know, it's by the book A fisherman casting one last time, one last rhyme Out of time, no reason stay alive If I can't thrive I'll die, ain't no way will I survive Everywhere I look I see the fakes on the hook Reeling in, I should know, it's by the book A fisherman casting one last time, one last rhyme Out of time, no reason stay alive