Why I'm Insecure (I Hate Flexing)

Yo, f*ck everything i've said so far I thought if my vids hit hard Then my self hate would go far away But instead they seem to be clinging on to me I wish I didn't even start this thing My words are starting to sting me I just want to be me But I've built up this fake me And people will only be friendly, to bitchy me Currently I only have one enemy, thats me Everything I want to be, seems to be hated by everything I wanna be honest, but I cant keep that promise I'm not beyond anything I told someone about my attractions They tell me thats wrong I don't know about god I don't know if im just to proud I know I'm loud, I dont know I'll every be proud to be gay I wish I was straight, maybe then it'll be okay No one seems to be supportive of that I'm just real sad about it So for now and ever I'll stay in my closet Just to seem straight, I'll act homophobic Man I'm just a bitch, I hate my self, to be honest I don't even care anymore Call me selfish I'm gonna stop posting Till I get myself in a better moment but I need to keep up my act So everything will seem intact I know the road is a dark path I know I might go mad It helps me through the dark moments Soon, everything will be glowing I just need a moment through all this pain Why I'm insecure, I hate flexing Why I'm insecure, I hate flexing Why I'm insecure, I hate flexing