Abandoned Me

Abba, Father Abba, Father My god, my god, why have you abandoned me My god, my god, why have you abandoned me My god, my god, why have you abandoned me My god, my god, why have you abandoned me Heart like Jesus Head like a hustler I meet, greet you, “Shalom” like a spiritual wrestler Workin’ so hard, so long for all these men They preach: “Be obedient” Cause of what’s between my legs Subservient women Maybe it’s natural law Maybe it’s eternal youth Or maybe I’m takin’ The Magistrate out of context But I don’t get this concept If I’m being honest with you I don’t know if The Narrow Way is the infallible truth I was born baptized, FilAm Radical cram school Academic achiever Procrastinator I honored my father Honored my mother 3...6...9…54 day novena with Holy Santo Nino Then I met a “god” in the form of a boy Methampheta...MINE Taught me how to cross the Lord After walking communion lines Is this how it felt When they pierced the rod at Christ’s side I prayed and fasted Drained my youth Feeding his narcissistic supply If the Holy Spirit is reading the room Let’s bump this sound Before the next man leaves me too soon My god, my god, why have you abandoned me My god, my god, why have you abandoned me Eloi Eloi, lama sabachthani Eloi Eloi, lama sabachthani Eloi Eloi, lama sabachthani Eloi Eloi, lama sabachthani My god, my god, why have you abandoned me My god, my god, why have you abandoned me My god, my god, why have you abandoned me My god, my god, why have you abandoned me Abba, Father