All I Wanted

I'll forgive but I'll never forget So many built up thoughts of regret Nightmares that leave me in sweats The devil's after me to pay my debts All my rivers have ran dry Cant look myself in the eye Im drowning in all these bottles Im going down at full throttle Is it ever love or just the narcotics? Life's up for grabs I said who wants it Demons of my past I know I'm haunted You were all I fucking wanted Standing on the edge and I'm playing with death We're holding hands but I'm not there yet Comfort I feel as I look to darkness Jumping off leaving the harness Built up my walls and they're ten feet high Really most days barely getting by You look at me and I just sigh Im so trapped in your web of lies Oh now the butterflies have died There's not much left I feel inside Cut me deep just like a knife I'd rather you just take my life What do I do with all the memories crumble them up do I throw them away You look at me with nothin to say I'm just a pawn in a game you play Tell me that you love me but you never change I'm just a shell of who I was You dragged me to hell still I'm craving your love All my rivers have ran dry Cant look myself in the eye Im drowning in all these bottles Im going down at full throttle Is it ever love or just the narcotics? Life's up for grabs I said who wants it Demons of my past I know im haunted You were all I fucking wanted Fooled me three times shame on me Pick the petals of every flower I see Oh he loves me He loves me not Damn who would have fuckin' thought Lookin for you in everyone I meet God I hate the feeling of defeat But I can't cope and shit I'm beat Stuck on you just like a leech All my rivers have ran dry Cant look myself in the eye Im drowning in all these bottles Im going down at full throttle Is it ever love or just the narcotics? Life's up for grabs I said who wants it Demons of my past I know im haunted You were all I fucking wanted You were all I wanted You were all I wanted You were all I wanted