Sometimes I Don't

Yeah, yeah What's the way to brace a storm Stuff the bodies in the base boards and lock the basement doors The fall of snow just damp da noise And all these choices god bestows I'll take some higher lows Cuz lower highs are closer to my death Da depth of everyone I meet Uniqueness is a rarer breed Narcissistic qualities is all I see & breathe When I can only trust myself Made me think about it Caught me by surprise Drinking having good times So, when you brought it up Of course, I knew And even now I still don't understand To me it's such a non-factor in my life & Yet you ask about it Well let me speak some facts Cause they won't look at you the same When I've done all of that And worse it's with the women that I loved But I can't put no blame to their reactions who am I to judge and hate When life has just begun & everybody gets a turn Might of loved the wrongs one but I keep on fucking Might of missed a couple but I keep it pushing Breaking down the census of my innovation Creativity and all it's accolations I assume the basis of my thoughts is purely me But in this influential world there's simply too much to ignore Stand for something die for nothing bitch But either way you're realer than these motherfuckers that don't take a chance At least you take it straight, if that's what you believe I'm not an open diagnosis for your mental piece Sociology degree, you know they got it worse right But this Money isn't evil Just the root of all people So, I'm breaking down foundations Ain't no hesitation every step is lethal Misdirect and overcompensate But I can see through all the colors Fifty shades of black and white And still ain't peeped the ultralights Like how the hell you lying to my fucken face Don't wanna be the one to say they all the same But you run away with all that rhetoric I threw away the keys to all the locks Yet you still got me trapped inside that box So, I smoked a whole ounce Beat boxing in that hot box bitch, HA They don't understand the real me Emotions only carry weight I lost a couple pounds I lost a couple friends But gained a greater confidence Yet I'm speaking out with death picking all these different coffins Man, it's hard to pick and choose when every interaction got a different type of cadence Is it happiness or hatefulness Education or annihilation of my freedom When that kingdom comes, I know I'll settle down I bet it on the fact that will probably be my last breath I don't fear my greatness only overshadowed by my doubtfulness The Fakeness of this world and all it's worth Is overpowered by the creed in my degree I'm heating up like metrics When she touched my soul, it felt so electric Now I'm left alone to recollect and reminisce I wonder if I'll ever fucken bleed again The pain is only temporary Happiness is only temporary Depression in n out like I was asking for a double Drowning in that liquor when I knew that girl was trouble Damn The greatest scarifies Require strong mentalities And strong mentalities Don't give up under pressure I can feel the heat from all directions Anger I just redirect it's often unexpected Miscommunication mixed with Cold endeavors Disassociate my inner peace Darker imagery that can't compete A deeper sense of valid interactions In world that only cares about attrition They Beat you bad and laugh about it, try to keep you in the same position Only physically cause mentally we are one with god I laugh about it, I can never take them seriously If that's my biggest competition