Addiction Wasted Years of My Life

Two pills in and I need some help Take one drink and the next three hell There's no normalcy in my daily life And I never try cause I always fail Go to jail never make bail Cause I'm flat broke This no joke I'm flat broke In more ways than just one It's not fun Miles in these shoes I've walked Getting lost over beats I talk And I hope you can't relate most days But if you can do you wish it'd stop Try to change it's not enough Shit gettin tough I just give up Don't know why I'm this high In my life can't live enough You walk down that road and it seems you can't return I need you right now but I need to fix me first Is this all I have or am I going insane I wake up too early my body is in pain You walk down that road and it seems you can't return I need you right now but I need to fix me first Is this all I have or am I going insane I wake up too early my body is in pain Proving you wrong but I still feel so broken Reality hits and it feels like I'm chosen I'm filled with doubt when I'm out in the open Im losing my will when they need me to focus Everyday insecurities get ahold of me I can barely breathe with anxiety and depression Inside I'm filled with aggression And I feel like I got a message But I speak it like a confession Messing up and learning some lessons And people sure try to test it Don't they make it seem like it's about them The world must revolve around them I get so high somehow remain grounded I climb hills but I can't move mountains I moved on but I need some closure Almost here and I feel no closer To where I'm going and it's gettin colder I'm getting older or so I'm told Run it back don't I wish I could Misunderstood but the shit's all good Dirt to throw I don't think I should Misunderstood but the shit's all good