Bottles and Books

I laugh at my mistakes Because otherwise they'd burn like fire And I don't know anymore if I could meet what I have before With the same kind of courage I convinced myself I had I've never been an open book But then again I never learned to read The movement in her face, her mind is always racing I guess we're not born knowing what we need There's no one I trust more When chemicals collide I see you coming through on the other side We've got to play these nights to find a reason to survive Between the bottles and the books, can't help but wonder Why am I alive? Well, the words all seem to change But the meaning stays the same I wish she would realize that the sadness in her eyes Is the same kind of feeling that keeps on ailing me And maybe you're the one Who can make my repention last A race to seeing double is bound to end in trouble A good love never comes on too fast There's no one I trust more When chemicals collide I see you coming through on the other side We've got to play these nights to find a reason to survive Between the bottles and the books Can't help but wonder Why am I alive? Well, you're right and I'm wrong, of course I just have to laugh at the waste Let's bury the past while we drown our grace I wouldn't have it any other way 'Cause there's no one I trust more When chemicals collide I hear your pretty voice on the other side I stumble through these nights to find the reason I get high Between the bottles and the books Still searching for the piece of me they took I lost myself while searching for a hook