I'm Not Dead

How many bad days away am I from feeling okay? I think need some more space until there's nothing All the best parts of my heart are buried under the pain A dead bolt and a chain so nothing comes in Long drive home It's feeling like an endless road Don't wanna see the place I'm going This empty house don't feel like home no more Looking for the turn around 180 I need a fucking turn around To save me No baby you can't hurt me now This changed me into something that I'm still trying to figure out I'm not dead, I'm just not here no more, not here no more No peace of mind, no tears, no I'm just not here no more, not here no more Not even having nightmares, mind is in the darkness Help is sitting right there, I don't wanna start this Feeling like a burden to break down in front of people I'm hurting but I don't wanna disturb em to get my heart fixed Remember when I smiled for days and now I can't even fake it Skies are turning to grey there's no more sunset Blank look stuck on my face, feel like I'm starting to fade I'm gettin caught in the rain, my god is upset This is not Something's that's in my blood I've just caught venom From the love I've lost Looking for the turn around 180 I need a fucking turn around God save me No baby you can't hurt me now This changed me into something that I'm still trying to figure out I'm not dead, I'm just not here no more, not here no more No peace of mind, no tears, no I'm just not here no more, not here no more Not even having nightmares, mind is in the darkness Help is sitting right there, I don't wanna start this Feeling like a burden to break down in front of people, I'm hurting but I don't wanna disturb em to get my heart fixed Not even having nightmares, mind is in the darkness Help is sitting right there, I don't wanna start this Conversation leading to weakness id rather leave with my demons, at least I'll never repeat this if I go heartless I'm, I'm just not here no more, not here no more I said I'm, I'm just not here no more not here no more I'm not dead, I'm just not here no more, not here no more No peace of mind, no tears, no I'm just not here no more, not here no more, no more