My Chernobyl

I felt this ending play out Long before it all began Long forgotten who I was Stagnant and shedding skin But there's nobody out there Nobody to pull me back to shore Oh if only I had learned how to swim Then I might not have to be drinking it in I can't watch, please tell me When it's over Are you really there? I can't watch, please tell me When it's over Watch me fade away From the inside It's from the inside There is nothing around I don't feel a thing As if I've finally made myself clear Or just made myself sick I'm beyond ruins Oh how I can't rebuild You're not yourself anymore You're not yourself anymore Gave myself away So much that of me there is nothing left Part of me finds beauty in how we all Will fall a part But there's nobody out there Nobody to pull me back to shore I am decorated with The sharks that I feed I can't watch, please tell me when it's over Are you even there? I can't watch please tell me when it's over Watch me fade away You're not yourself anymore