Dear Mother

Sometimes silence is loud It's kind of hard to figure out that sometimes Knowing what to choose means Knowing that you'll loose And if it feels alright You've been holding on tight Sometimes losing it means You've won the fight Thoughts just keep getting in the way There's always something more to say And there's so many ways to apologize But I don't need more noise, I don't want your lies I need a moment to realize I've got so much more to say but every word you'd throw away And I wouldn't find them all if I tried (Oh if I tried) It hurts to think about all those things I couldn't figure out When I was young and still confused Not knowing how to stop the fuse And I'm still scared when I'm alone but now I've got a home and I've got Open arms to greet me But the memories defeat me Thoughts just keep getting in the way There's always something more to say And there's so many ways to apologize But I don't need more noise, I don't want your lies I need a moment to realize I've got so much more to say but every word you'd throw away And I wouldn't find them all I tried too hard to be okay When I was faking who I was Always putting up a face, I wanted More to life but when I tried I knew there was nothing I could do So even if it hurt me too My only option was to leave you (Even if it hurt me too) So here's to a letter That I'll never send I wish I knew how To make amends And there's so many ways I could apologize But I was just another person trying to change their life I always knew that things would go this way I just didn't know I'd still not be okay I just need a moment to realize I'm so glad I flew away Though it haunts me to today I could write a few more songs I could right a few more wrongs Would you talk to me then Would you try to be my friend I can't change what occurred There's still a hole where you were Dear Mother