All in Your Head

I've been told that it's all in my head Possibly, but I haven't been proven wrong yet Cause at best, I'm a mediocre joke to these folks Who start to laugh at me when I start to choke Whenever I swallow my pride As I attempt to show 'em what's inside my mind But then I quit cause I really am quite afraid That they'll see my brain, but then wouldn't want to stay "You need God. Why don't you go back to church?" The only reason why I went is cause my parents first Cause how could I believe in something else Whenever right now, I still don't believe in myself How messed up is that? I'm leading the attack against my own back Secretly wishing my vision goes black Like I'm not destined for greatness So everything I make is basically wasted Time and energy that I've spent For only me, in the end, to become irrelevant Cause I never really fitted in within my kin Cause my personality doesn't match my skin Like who the hell is gonna be able to relate To a whitewashed, brown kid filled with self-hate And the only thing I have in common with Biggie Is that I'm ready to die, except no one will miss me But that's all in your head It's all in your head It's all in your head All in your head But that's all in your head All in your head It's all in your head But Take a look at me and you can see That I'll simply never be the type of guy to make the fans scream Cause my confidence is exceptionally less than the rest So I can never confess I got this "S" on my chest So I"ll stick to my lane, which is off the side So through my own design, I'll never be fine Cause my mind's been telling me I'm the worst when I write a verse So I gotta quit my search cause I'll never find my worth My biggest fear is I'll never find my purpose hear It's so clear with every day that the end gets near I've never been special, feeling like a stencil I'm never gonna be number one like a pencil So easy to erase my face And find somebody better to take my place Cause I'm gone without a trace like I never really mattered Cause unlike Jackson Pollock, no one cares where I splatter My mind's all over the place So please don't judge me cause I know that I'm a lost case Gotta face the fact that I lack the skills to impact All the kids that are in the back of the pack But they don't seem to like me anyway They never gave two shits about what I say And why should they when someone else does it better So no one's gonna listen to my words ever