Breathe

Breathe Trying to steady my breathing But I can't shake the feeling that I've lost the meaning To the purpose of my so called life and I don't why. I'm trying to figure it out, but I am just a guy In the world trying to do better But the longer that I'm on this Earth, I tend to get more bitter Trying to find happiness So I'll always be stress Surrounded by the mess That I've made inside my head. Time to clean it out But most of these days, I just wanna scream and shout Breathe in Breathe out And Breathe Trying to stay calm But you can already tell by the shaking of my palm That I can't take it no more. That I'm about to explode That Imma crack under the pressure while I carry the load That I'm trying to lift over my shoulder It's a boulder And it seems to get heavier every year I grow older I don't know how much longer I can take from this Cause whenever I think it's steady, the balance shift So my mind is split, straight down the middle It's getting harder to tell between good and evil Cause Am I a good guy in this evil world Or are my evil thoughts destroying what's left of my soul? And I can't take it no more So I'm locking up my door while I'm lying on the floor Breathe in Breathe out And breathe Trying to stay focused Hoping nobody will notice That I have zero clue on what I should do In this game called life cause there are no rules So I'm thrown in the deep end without a way to defend My mind against these psychological defects That have been me with since my day of birth And it feels each day, it's only getting worse So I (Breathe in) Take a deep breath As I'm (Breathe out) Hoping this helps Cause I don't really want to bother my father or my mother Cause they got their own problems. I don't wanna add another Cause I don't want to be a burden, so I'll keep it to myself Knowing full well that this isn't good for my health Mentally cause whenever I do try to break free It seems these issues get a tighter grip on me Screaming out to God, "Why'd you make this mistake?!" Praying someday soon it's get taken away Breathe in Breathe out And Breathe Trying to keep it within So I fake out a grin before the morning begins But it seems to take a toll Everyday on my soul Sometimes gotten to the point where I've lost control Of all my emotions, causing quite a commotion Making my self doubt become even more potent So now I've become my biggest foe Even though I tried to play the superhero Trying to be like Cap. Being more like Hank Pym In the background, thinking why I can't be like him Breathe in Breathe out And Breathe Trying to keep it together Hoping that it'll get better Before I write this letter Explaining why I'm up in my room Locked away in my gloom Ending it describing as to why I'm doomed To face these demons in my zone all alone While trying to tell myself I can't do this on my own