I want to cry again

I think I'm numb to feelings I want to cry again I tried last night to vent and My eyes went dry again I think I'm too revealing I think I'll never win I'm too far gone for healing God just let me know Why do I feel indifferent when all of my people don't I Never show when I'm mad and I never show when I'm low And when everyone else is sad I can never jump on the boat I know I show my empathy wear it all on my clothes But I just can't understand why they show the things that they show I used to think they were trippin and really doing the most But I'm the only one dry eyed and chillin here on my own I know I'm not a stoic I'm feeling the things they go through Everything that they go through tear em up in my soul I'm starting to think that I'm just detached from people I'm close to People I'm really close to and it's making a hole Ain't shed a tear since the old school all the way back in old school Maybe I be repressing it so I'll never be hoed But know I feel like I'm posed to really feel like I'm posed Cause how else will I bond and let these relationships grow I think I'm numb to feelings I want to cry again I tried last night to vent and My eyes went dry again I think I'm too revealing I think I'll never win I'm too far gone for healing Too gone to let them in I think I'm numb to feelings I want to cry again I tried last night to vent and My eyes went dry again I think I'm too revealing I think I'll never win I'm too far gone for healing Too gone to let them in I feel I can't seem to give my Tears out for anything and I don't why Honestly I feel I can't keep it real I Feel so disconnected even though I do try I feel I can't seem to give my Trust even though they trust me with they lives I feel I can't seem to vent my Emotions if I don't have a beat and a mic Beating my mind every day now Running round like children in a playground I hope I never made you think I didn't want to hangout I hope that my connections never fade out I hope that my friends will understand that I'm different Can't comprehend just letting out my feelings I hide myself away and conceal it I think that I accept I need healing I think I'm numb to feelings I want to cry again I tried last night to vent and My eyes went dry again I think I'm too revealing I think I'll never win I'm too far gone for healing Too gone to let them in I think I'm numb to feelings I want to cry again I tried last night to vent and My eyes went dry again I think I'm too revealing I think I'll never win I'm too far gone for healing Too gone to let them in