i keep fucking up again

I keep fucking up again But I don't like to go to bed upset These days you're all I think about The shit that I can't say out loud I'm not used to trying I'm losing my mind The breath I'm not taking The moves you're not making The change in your tone The shape in your words And I can't make it go away So I stay in bed all day And it's just always on my mind, the words I'm trying to find But I always say shit that's embarrassing I keep fucking up again And I don't know how to breathe it never ends Trying to change what is so ingrained But it's just looping inside my brain I just need some silence I'm losing my mind The breath I'm not taking The moves you're not making The change in your tone The shape in your words And I can't make it go away So I stay in bed all day And it's just always on my mind, the words I'm trying to find But I always say shit that's embarrassing But I always say shit that's embarrassing