believe the hype

Today I thought about it all And I think that you owe me a "sorry" Cough it up, yeah, make it count I hope you feel so lost without me All these thoughts they boil up And I'm overflowing, yeah, I'm leaking There's nowhere safe to pour them out 'Cause no one knows me I'm your secret I must be out of my mind Fall for it every time and I will until I die I find solace in yearning for you now I mistake lust for passion and I thrive for pain I'll believe the hype, I try to stay 'Cause I still need this I've tried sober, I've tried drunk I can't numb enough as I try to fix it I call your bluff, you're not so tough You used me up, don't get it twisted And I've got others on my line, at least five I use them all to distract me The show that you've been putting on is old and tired You're overacting And I must be out of my mind Fall for it every time and I will until I die I find solace in yearning for you now I mistake lust for passion and I thrive for pain I'll believe the hype, I try to stay 'Cause I still need this I'm so sorry for your stress You've got a grieving heart and a heavy head So you take it out on me instead But I don't mind, I'm used to it I've got a fetish for suffering and bleeding out for an audience