Did It Mean Nothing?

I thought it was real I thought it was, thought it was real Did I mean nothing to you, babe? Did I mean nothing to you? I'm sorry for all the things I can't explain All the messages I wrote when I was feeling pain Got too attached on what I lost instead of what I gained I guess you start to lose yourself with no one else to blame A lot of lonely nights awake staring at the rain But without you, it just doesn't feel the same Reminiscing, thinking back to all the happy days Now all I got is a memory and picture frame Did it mean nothing when I asked for help? I looked to you when there was no one else You turned your back and you didn't care 'bout how I felt You said I'm lucky with the cards that I was dealt But I still feel like I'm alone with nobody else In a room full of people, but I'm sitting by myself Had a lot of past aggression and I couldn't tell If someone would catch me if I would've fell I'm sorry For all the things I shouldn't say Like the way you made me feel every single day Cause I hated you in every single way You said you had a plan But who are you to say How I should live my life If I should love or fight Cause even when you're wrong I'm almost never right I'm staring at the words I know I shouldn't write But I'm tired of talking to myself every single night Wish I could tell you how I really feel With all at stake, is it even worth it to reveal The pain I get inside every time that your name is mentioned But what's the point of risking everything that isn't real I thought what we had was a real connection But I guess it wasn't part of the deal I saw in you what I could've swore was true affection But it's a lesson, so I'm guessing that it's time to heal I gotta sit back and relax cause it got me stressing And try to figure out these feelings that I keep on catching But in the end it's up to me to confront my confessions Searching for answers when you don't even know the question So tell me what to do with all these misconceptions The way I see you, you don't see me and it's all perception Wish I could show you what we have is a form of blessing And stop putting off these feelings that we're not addressing I'm sorry That it isn't me Cause what it's been is the reason that it couldn't be And all I want is you, I know it shouldn't be I just can't ignore the signs that you wouldn't see And I keep talking to myself so this is truthfully How I've been feeling, can't get over what you do to me It's been killing me inside and it ruins me But the only thing I'm focused on is you and me You, babe Did I mean nothing to you? Thought it was real Thought we were together Did I mean nothing to you?