thE bEgiNNiNg...

I don't know if it matters How I deal with pain and turn it into laughter When I see myself the reflection shatters And the voice inside always comes in after and I don't know if it matters How I mess things up but I miss the patterns Cause I go too slow then I take it faster Now i'm suffering but it doesn't matter cause I see the darkness in my shadow And I see the pain inside my eyes And I seem to lose in every battle But I won't give up now because I have tired like a million times and I cannot stand cause I fall behind and I Always get back on my feet Cause I can handle death I won't accept defeat So how did I get here cause it's been a while Now I don't even recognize my smile Feel like i'm so lost in a world so cold But this is just the beginning This is just the beginning This is just the beginning This is just the beginning The beginning to the end And I cant go through this again Never know how to comprehend All of the voices in my head And all of the problems up ahead I think it's time I realize That you can't life your life behind All of the issues in your life So now I choose to be alive Cause I saw the darkness in my shadow And I saw the pain inside my eyes And I kept on losing every battle But I won't give up now because I have tired like a million times and I Cannot stand cause I fall behind and I Always get back on my feet Cause I can handle death I won't accept defeat So how did I get here cause it's been a while Now I don't even recognize my smile Feel like i'm so lost in a world so cold But this is just the beginning I see the darkness in my shadow And I see the pain inside my eyes And I seem to lose in every battle But I won't give up now because I saw the darkness in my shadow And I saw the pain inside my eyes And I kept on losing every battle But I won't give up now Cause I have tired like a million times and I cannot stand cause I fall behind and I Always get back on my feet Cause I can handle death I won't accept defeat So how did I get here cause it's been a while Now I don't even recognize my smile Feel like i'm so lost in a world so cold But this is just the beginning