WhätS thE diffERENCE

They always told me that I'm nothing special It's getting in my head and messing up my health I think I'm trapped in my mental I'll loose my mind And commit suicide Before I give in They said I have no potential to be great And now I feel like I have nothing left to give I start to think that it's too late I'm lost inside and I apologize That I am this way I tried to find it When I was blinded I never minded that i'm different Thought you would notice I'm loosing focus I need a moment just to fix this Won't say i'm sorry To anybody F*ck everybody in existence All by myself I don't need your help I'm stuck in a hell but what's the difference They told me i'm too impatient But I been feeling like i've waited all my life Just to have the sensation To feel alive I would take my life Cause now it's over They always say i'm a problem I feel like I never fit in mentally They push me down to the bottom I'm loosing time I need to take what's mine And get the f*ck out I tried to find it When I was blinded I never minded that i'm different Thought you would notice I'm loosing focus I need a moment just to fix this Won't say i'm sorry To anybody F*ck everybody in existence All by myself I don't need your help I'm stuck in a hell but what's the difference Take me to heaven Cause I don't really wanna go naturally They say i'll be forgiven But how do I get to the afterlife If i'm the devil I tried to find it When I was blinded I never minded that i'm different Thought you would notice I'm loosing focus I need a moment just to fix this Won't say i'm sorry To anybody F*ck everybody in existence All by myself I don't need your help I'm stuck in a hell but what's the difference