We will never know

So much shit up on my mind, so We barely be speakin I know sometimes that I go Ghost,just know that you ain't The reason I just be stuck up in my thoughts, Cause I be feeling defeated And it be hard to hold a heart, so I just f*ck you and leave you And I don't mean to Leave you all alone And I done called a thousand times, I had to call from unknown And all these VVs around my neck, can't believe that I'm on And I don't need no fuckin' therapy put pain in my songs I was that nigga back in high school that they laughed at A lot of niggas see me and they say that I done changed And I'm the same old nigga from the womb to my grave The only thing that had got bigger was my pockets and my chains I probably pop me a perc, or even pour a four Cause I be deep in depression, they always talk about my life But they don't know a thing, because they see a nigga Postin' on that fuckin' app, and all that shit that they be talkin All that shit be cap', cause they ain't livin' in my life I swear a nigga reach for my chain, I swear that's gon' be his life I gotta teach my son get money and that loyalty for life Yeah, that lil' nigga ain't mine, but he forever solid I had told TK the love was never ever lost The most valuable thing to lose is a peace of mind The most valuable thing we never get back, probably time And I ain't got the time, and I can't even get no sleep Cause I ain't got a mill, and I hate tellin' my lil' sister I ain't got time to chill, I try to tell y'all everything So y'all can know the feel, and I'ma tell y'all everything Ain't got no fuckin' chill, feel like a fish up out that water Ain't no use for gills, and they can say just what they want But my heart made of steel, I seen them talk shit on the gram But they ain't fuckin' real, I still put Pyrex on my body I just feel like Virgil, and I'm always wearin' gloves Cause I know pussy fertile, I be knowin' that I'm Stefan But they treat me like I'm urkel, and I be runnin' on these tracks And all my pain is like my hurdles feel like I love pourin up lean, I guess my favorite color purple for Real I try to stay up on that gram, cause I know all these bitches plottin I ain't never in my city, so that shit ain't on my back And if you askin' for a feature, that shit cost a couple racks If I f*ck up on your bitch, I bet you never get her back for real They can't even talk that shit, we can't go deal for deal See these Other rappers like my fuckin' food, we can't go meal for meal Catch me down on Cleveland, we got more clips than a movie All my bitches got some booty, so you know I'm feelin' groovy for real A lot of y'all ain't really real, so you know we can't go kill for kill Made so much money on that block, so now you knowin' we go pill for pill Thinkin' to myself, back when I was broke They was never there, but now they here to toast I put my chain around your neck because you like to choke How the f*ck you love me, then you leave me like a fuckin' ghost Thinkin' if I got you back, would it be like it was before I'm only chasin' money and my dreams, so we will never know So we will never know, so we will never know