The Party

The party was over before it even began I'm sober with your drink in my hand, I wish you'd understand That I love how much you love your friends But I don't have to love them, though I'll pretend for your sake So here I am, having the same conversations again I need a break from trynna break the ice without falling in I'll swim across oceans for your love, but these people don't give a f*ck If you drown, and somehow that's who you bring With you out on deep water, I feel for ya, but sometimes I feel sorta unreal to ya, look, I'm trying To be who ya define yourself by And well, I know it's kinda low, but I kinda hope your drink spills on ya Right before the gin and juice turn to interviews where you bend the truth And I get accused for shit I didn't do You letting loose while I'm holding on tight You let me lose cause I don't know why we fight You're too dependent On what your friends think Like you forget what you think when you are alone Impress them Earn their acceptance If you don't wanna be somebody on your own You remind me of a love-song Always playin in the background The one you can't run from That you can't turn down Said you remind me of a love-song That leaves you wit your heart torn The kind that you cry to You won't see me cry tho I won't shed no tears over you I'm not gonna I won't shed no tears over you I'm not gonna I won't shed no tears over you I'm not gonna I won't shed no tears over you I'm not gonna You want me to act like I care I want you to stop acting You want me to be serious I want you to start laughing You want me to fit your ideas I want you to stop planning You want me to be here for this I want you to notice my absence You want me to take a picture for ya I want you to stop snapping You want me to not be ridiculous I want you to start dancing You want me to see how they adore ya I want you to look past em You want me despite our differences And I wanted you, but that was back then