Dead Inside

I don't wanna feel this way Voices in my head keeping me awake Man It's kinda hard to concentrate When my mind's replaying all of my mistakes Now I'm in this crowded place Listening to people I can't tolerate Sipping on this drink that my body can't take So I can just forget all of my mistakes But I'm already dead inside I was terrified But tonight I don't wanna think Looking through her painted eyes See her fantasize 'Bout a life If I didn't exist This is the American dream Now I can pay for everything But I'll throw a fit And I'll make a scene If I don't get What I need And now I'm dead with my friends 'Cause we're out too late And I forget I forget How it felt when they said That we'd never break Do it again and again 'Til I'm dead to my friends And there's no more love And I forget I forget How it felt when they left 'Cause I've had too much I haven't felt anything since 2008 This tie around my neck feeling heavy like a weight throw it all away Now I need my space I'll find another way I'll die another day Now let's call the priest And Bury me in this supreme I don't wanna feel this way Voices in my head keeping me awake Man It's kinda hard to concentrate When my mind's replaying all of my mistakes Now I'm in this crowded place Listening to people I can't tolerate Sipping on this drink that my body can't take So I can just forget all of my mistakes I'm just calling to say I won't be coming in today I couldn't reach you through the screen So I'm pressing delete I'm just calling to say That I'll be a little late Everybody is asleep See you this time next week I don't wanna feel this way Voices in my head keeping me awake Man It's kinda hard to concentrate When my mind's replaying all of my mistakes Now I'm in this crowded place Listening to people I can't tolerate Sipping on this drink that my body can't take So I can just forget all of my mistakes And now I'm dead with my friends 'Cause we're out too late And I forget I forget How it felt when they said That we'd never break Do it again and again 'Til I'm dead to my friends And there's no more love And I forget I forget How it felt, when they left 'Cause I've had too much