Rising Tide

And so, the story begins Giving birth to a child as a hope for change Growing up by your side, now I'm half your age Hear the shame in his voice when he says my name There is just no cover in sight Keep pretending you'd care I'm pretending I'm fine I'm all alone for myself this time No one ever did anything wrong I'm all alone for another time Will you be there till the dawn? And it must have been said that I wasn't upset just Disappointed in the way that you treat me I never asked to be born into this family The places that you left me in have never been a home And the flaws of mine? Ten years of treatment and I still feel like there's nothing to expect from life Mom, I told you that this wasn't just a phase Cause it grew part of me inside and now I'm suffering in vain All of the mental knots you tied And the promises that were broken Medication left aside All the wasted words that were spoken Did not see the rising tide And the holes it left are still open Can't you see that I still fall? And enough's been said, enough's been tried I've been wandering this maze too long Babe, I'm falling off that ride Holding on to thoughts that keep me alone But I'm up to see, I'm up to try Will you ever make me feel like home? Let us take another try Cause you're the only one that's offering hold But you'll see all the reasons for my sight Cause there's nothing left to believe in I tried to feel alright But I lost the sense for all feelings Welcome to my life The hopeless mess I'm concealing Can't you see that I still fall?