No Chance of Repair

Lonely, yeah I was so lonely Down and out for the count Head sinking to the ground Swallowed up in these doubts Hating my personality Fearing my nationality Conscious of my mentality Even more so the Christianity Losing faith in humanity Even behaving erratically Lost all sense of direction In desperate need for attention For some passionate connection Yearning for unlimited affection Not caring about my intentions Just looking to resolve my erections In hopes of settling the tension I was wallowing on my own Reluctant to break away from this zone Blinded by envy, seething with rage Afraid to be caught on display Don't want to be a disgrace Don't want to feel so misplaced Can't escape from all of this shame That keeps on calling my name I know that I'm drained Ain't got nothing to gain Can't you see its the pain I'm trapped by all of these chains Weighed down by mistakes Surrounded by so many snakes This is too much I can't keep up Right now I'm living in vain So trust me when I say that I can acknowledge the strain Feel like I'm going insane Wish that I could refrain So full of emotion Overwhelmed with emotion Don't know if I'm broken Or if I'm just open These late nights got me drinking Got me thinking Got me wishing But I'm sinking Lower into my depths of despair With no chance of repair, yeah No chance of repair I need all the prayers No nothing compares When I lay it bare Forget all my cares I'll admit that is rare Put my feelings out there Too scared to declare Guess I need to prepare For all of the judgemental stares Don't think that I'm unaware Of those thoughts going off in your head I'm lacking the focus Lost all my drive I'm feeling hopeless Time to hide Too many emotions blocking me off I can't control them, it's at a loss I can't even zone them, at any cost Away from my heart This pain has torn me apart Now I'm off the chart Tell me can I restart I'm tired of making my path Just look at the aftermath Been wearing too many masks You and I know it's a farce You and I know that life's too sparse I can't let go of the past No matter how hard I try I know it won't last Too much time has passed Got no energy to cast Don't know what to do Just need some kind of break-through I know that I'm not a quitter But I've never been so bitter So hurt that I struggle to listen Missing out on that wisdom I'm in such a state My head's all over the place Forever trying to be brave When all I need is his grace I don't know what to say I'm feeling so dismayed I'd rather be honest Sorry for sounding moronic It's better than being dishonest I just had to confess I know that I'm not at my best I gotta get through this test And prove that I'm not like the rest In order for me to progress No chance of repair I need all the prayers, yeah