Bring Me Down

(I couldn't even say the amount) (They tryna bring me down) (I got some racks in my pocket) (I got some racks in my pocket) (I got some racks in my pocket) (Yeah yeah yeah yeah) Got so much pain in my body wish I could end it now I shed some tears when you left I couldn't even say amounts I dropped some racks out my pocket to put one in the ground I know they praying I stop it won't let em bring me down I got some past traumas, blood stains What you know bout heart ache Fake smile, mind weak Can't you tell my heart strained Masked up, red light Hit one in a car chase COVID got the best of me I'm sick of all this heart pain Hearing my people died on Christmas shit I felt the worst way Andrea gone and Bri away I questioned what the church say I cried my last tear two days later that shit resurfaced Thought time would heal them wounds It's been some years this shit still hurting I know that ain't nothing perfect but life ain't seeming what they say it is Shit be cutting short so if you think it you should say it then All about my chips and if I gamble then I play to win In the trenches taking risks they screaming pray again and spray again I'm often feeling like the love gone Or maybe I've been loved wrong Can't even go to sleep unless I have a bitch to rub on Done lost so much up in these streets can't even pretend like ain't the trust gone Keep a pistol on my dresser know I won't hesitate to bust wrong All I see is rainy days like where the brighter side at A couple times they caught us slipping you know we had to slide back Been walking with my head down they asking where the pride at Know I ain't prayed in a while I'm thinking I should try that Got so much pain in my body wish I could end it now I shed some tears when you left I couldn't even say amounts I dropped some racks out my pocket to put one in the ground I know they praying I stop it won't let em bring me down I got some past traumas, blood stains What you know bout heart ache Fake smile, mind weak Can't you tell my heart strained Masked up, red light Hit one in a car chase COVID got the best of me I'm sick of all this heart pain Swear I can't even check my phone no more Or write out most these songs no more Scared to check that message know I can't take it being alone no more Put my best foot forward but I won't ever set them goals no more Bro stood 10 toes downs but he ain't even got his soul no more They say they love me when they needing something Tell me if it's really real Nightly I envision bro Tell me if you really here Asking me what's up but they don't care about how I really feel Dark clouds all around I kinda feel the end is really near I can't deny that all my trust gone but tell me you won't leave again Voices in my head they keep on asking why you leave the kid Tell me all these lies that keep me calm and keep them demons in Tell me all these lies that keep me calm and keep them demons in (Yea yea yea yea) Said all I see is rainy days like where the brighter side at A couple times they caught us slipping you know we had to slide back Been walking with my head down they asking where ya pride at Know I ain't prayed in a while I'm thinking I should try that Got so much pain in my body wish I could end it now I shed some tears when you left I couldn't even say amounts I dropped some racks out my pocket to put one in the ground I know they praying I stop it won't let em bring me down I got some past traumas, blood stains What you know bout heart ache Fake smile, mind weak Can't you tell my heart strained Masked up, red light Hit one in a car chase COVID got the best of me I'm sick of all this heart pain