2020

I spend time when I look in the mirror After 12 years of being bitter It took almost losing my mind to finally see things clearer Hard to be consistent while constantly chasing brilliance Had to keep my distance I'm hardly in my feelings My dog was in the system since Christmas he came out vicious Talk and my intentions is equal you boys fictitious Found pictures of my mistress in the phone I handle business with Enough of that Shot was butter hooping in the cold in the cul-de-sac This for Stunna Ollie Keith in fact them boys my zodiac Used to trust him with my life now I wonder where tony at Pen and paper first to hear my issues Fly high Mash I cried that siku you know we miss you Ion know what ma dukes would have done if I was in his shoes Pain of losing a son so young is hard to see thru Biscotti in my lung as I drown myself up in these tunes I hardly cap Know for a fact Your rap cliche serious as a heart attack Words don't hold no weight Wait I ain't mean to get into that I'm all up in yo face f*ck a internet tit for tat If I clap stay out my mention Theres business pleasure and then there's light sessions You was in that section when I was in brief depression You assumed my intentions thought you was my prized possession Didn't ask no questions when I went in without protection I was young and foolish Now I'm cooling I done learned my lesson Didn't like school but I ain't a fool I keep me a Wesson In truth I yearned for my turn but now I want seconds Was quick to take my heart with no hesitation We grew apart I searched for love outta desperation I found peace in my lyrics this is my meditation Now she liking all my pics when I'm out on vacation How I passed her to my crew you think I'm Gary Peyton And my niggas lose screws shoot like Jason Tatum They distort my words boy use em verbatim Trynna make me look like satan dawg I shame em My minds been running wild like I'm back in manic mode 2020 was a blur pills on account of those Built up stress in my past shit was bound to take a toll You couldn't imagine all the shit goin on up in my dome I don't hold nothing in no more gimme a beat and I unload Deepest crevice of my soul I explore more than before Me and my ego was at war and my mind was keeping the score Girl after girl at my door never saw I was the whore Introspected my core as I watched my little sister draw A stick figure picture of me with a crown killing a boar And In all honesty dawg that's really who I do it for Lil mama teach me all these lessons cuz and she's only four As a young buck coming up I was taught how to conform No emotion you a warrior nigga that was the norm Thats like learning how to make love by watching porn Them niggas acting Even the savage of savages got they passion