So Cheers Ii

In the event of my death You should know this I want my body turned into ashes by 2 am I want to be mixed with the sand at that particular time Because that was when I felt the most alive I envy people who find it easy to close their eyes and sleep I used to be able to do it But ever since I started to feel Insomnia has never failed to keep me company I still go over our messages Of her saying she doesn’t love me And get tortured by fantasies of her with him You see The night is humbling It tells me that I’ll be lucky if anyone decides to love me So I treat everyone nicely Maybe someone someday will graciously deal with my excesses I feel like I am failing At what I have no idea I probably should talk to someone But it’s 2 am Everyone is dead asleep So I pick up my phone to write this So I can smile when the sun finally comes out And that’s it