Holidays

I wanna start this off by saying that I'm grateful I'm living And I welcome the light of new days With a merry lil ribbon But I can't wrap the fact my heart is Black All this pain I been feelin Holidays have changed the more we Age Found myself reminiscing about the season changes Feeling anxious Oh so patient for Christmas days Family stays, my cousins waitin I was so Ecstatic to see their faces But things have changed, It's not the Same Some people seen the pearly gates Some family ran and stayed away Some of my friends have changed and turn to snake But My, life goes on, I'm remaining Strong, I'll just run along I face my wrongs just like Cheech & Chong, cause I'm smokin strong I fight my demons, don't need no Beef from unholy heathens I feel I'm fiendin, but what I need in My dreaming sequels I want my passion back My faith and trust intact Too much to ask for that I'm roaming in my head, can't find a bed like an insomniac My heart under attack, I throw the Flag It seems there's never slack But some of us can't handle that When you feel you can't who got Your back?