My Story

Around the time when I was 5 that's When we got to stepping Ignorant to reality of what was really Happening So confused and so concerned About the truck we gassing Why all my shit in the back, wrapped, so neatly packed in Askin why we on this road so long? And why we not home and chillin With the family no mo And I cried And I tried To wipe away all the pain stuck Inside But that's what happens when views Cruise and then collide My momma wasn't happy Blame not all on my daddy She wasn't feeling the chemistry of His anata-my But f*ck him because that nigga rimy Not living right, the shit stuck in the Dark Quickly came to light Now it's a fight if you in my sight, Put it on my life Had to take a second to manifest it My nerves is hectic Heart is heavy And I still feel you Wrecked it But it's a blessing Don't think you ever steppin Back to our life And when you see how we living Look at your wife Me and my sister won't miss you I hope you cry at night This shit been on my mind so I had To write It down to free up my conscience Translated like fonex So much hate where my heart at Hard to gauge how to gaurd it So infused with this rage But that's enough of that chapter Turn the page theres more pain That I ain't even master So my heart getting blacker But f*ck it, this my story Fast forward 2016 I'm still feeling that pain Simple trials and tribulations, that Shit routine But what had me jaded, was at my Graduation Looking through all the familiar faces And couldn't find the one My cousin was fighting depression And the other side won Now what's stuck in my head Conversation we had Back in 20-1-2 His ceremony was through And what he told me he'd do Was return the favor 4 years later But the pain up inside him was Definitely greater Not angry at him but I do miss em Badly Lately I been struggling containing My anger flashes Spark a wood, hope and pray I'm Shaking off all attachments Not attacking the people close to me I Don't want to self destruct cause I Know there's hope here for me But some times it feel like someone Put a tight ass rope on me And everytime I flench or move I feel That bitch choking me And I'll only cope with weed Cause it's come straight off the earth Only time I'm out my mind is when I'm floating of the purp That's because it take pain out my Brain when it hurt And it keep me in my frame, Got me Tame not Bizerk But it still doesn't matter Cause my demons not tame So infused with this rage But that's enough of that chapter Turn the page theres more pain That I ain't even master So my heart getting blacker But f*ck it, this my story