Purgatory

Please Stay the f*ck away from me Just get up and fucking leave Me alone just grab your things Or go to bed and fucking sleep It is really what you need Just to stop and fucking breathe Oh the webs we try and weave All for opportunity Fucked! Up! Integrity Is it just a word I shout into the the void Or something I consciously base my decisions around It's mere existence playing a factor in every thing I do If I teeter on the edge of insanity constantly Then how much weight does that concept hold? F*ck it Go Home Go, Home! What the f*ck is even real I can't ever tell Can't ask my friends what to do They blame my mental health I'll wear my heart on my sleeve But I don't rep it well Cuz in the end all I need Is just some fucking help F*ck it I need some fucking help What the f*ck is even real I can't ever tell Can't ask my friends what to do They blame my mental health I'll wear my heart on my sleeve But I don't rep it well Cuz in the end all I need Is just some fucking help This sleep deprivation makes complacency a crutch And the deep conversations are irrelevant as f*ck I keep shaking I'm crazy I lie awake in a haze I keep trying to sleep but I've been conscious for days (Self deprecation) A hard habit to break I chain smoke camels Just to feel something I am living a nightmare I don't want to fucking die The feeling of nothing Creeps from the corner of my eyes And in that moment I see what you really are What stands before me Isn't the answer to my problems Instead I witness a siren Manipulating me simply With a whisper in my ear Pulling the strings The deeper we go Down Down Down do we go Into the depths We suffer Eternally