not this anymore/winter 2016

This is your song I was waiting on your phone call Wondering if you'd make it home Now we live in different time zones How the hell's it my fault? I don't want to live like this anymore I don't want to live like this anymore I don't want to live like this anymore I don't wanna Tell me, how's it feel Living through a life that No-one seems to fill And all your fucking lovers Never speak until the end Family's trauma always loves you As a kid Ooo, ooo How do I not feel this anymore Ooo, ooo How do I not feel this anymore Take a step back How long has it been Since we had a real conversation that Didn't involve getting all you want 'Cause winning the lottery's a Pain in the ass How does it feel to know Friends don't really know Who you are 'Cause who you really are's Not the role you play You know they don't know They don't know you're so close 'Cause these things don't Feel the same love, and I can't really force it In the end, and I ain't got nobody to Be safe with If I wanted to be friends I'd be saving all these Bens In the bank Ooo, ooo How do I not feel this anymore Ooo, ooo How do I not feel this anymore Every person in this town Is the saddest thing I've met No matter in their 20s, 40s Feeling something is nothing Reminds me of that girl from 8th grade that I thought I would marry What a funny thing to say from An age that couldn't think that It truly mattered But I was happier That was the only thing That kept me feeling lighter Before she moved away She placed her hand against my Face and said, I'll miss you I'll miss you the most I think she took my heart And plant it in her yard Outside that little house she Moved out towards those eastern parts And all the first times, with Girls I kissed with bedroom eyes Weren't supposed to be the times I wish I could rewind And all of Shawn's songs Illuminate my phone still I never told my exes 'bout that One that moved from Texas So no one knows your name They can try to reach my plate But you'll never hear this song, and Maybe it should stay that way