Real Talk

I'm frustrated Irritated Every time I open my mouth I feel stupid I hate it Cause I feel I got nothing to say And I think they all wish That I would just go away But hey I can prove my worth to you Just give me some time So I can show you all my Best features cover the grime I gotta lotta baggage I don't want you to see Cause I'm a little scared of What you might think of me What do you think I don't know But I always assume That it's the worst though I got baggage I wish That I could let go In my head they find Their way back just like an echo Echo I just wish that I could let go It makes all of the anxiety And stress grow I wear this fake smile For approval I'll follow you because Your happiness is crucial I long for attention So I'll just hide the depression I can earn your affection By pretending to master perfection You can be my obsession Wherever you go That'll be my direction So I'll feel as if I've Earned my redemption So I can hide from the lies And the confession I need to be needed Conceited I feed it With all your praise While you're seated Hoping that you'll never know You've been cheated So I can feel that My missions completed Don't run away I'm your sunshine On a cloudy day I can be the one friend Who always stays So your need for me Will never fade Sounds sad right giving the Illusion they can see Because of my light Thinking all I do I do for them With all of my might They don't really know What's going on within my life Keep it out of their sight That's the way I strive right That's right I'm looking for something Looking for hope My actions mean nothing I'm feeling so empty Can anyone save me Anyone save me Insecurity I agree But insanity Just maybe I don't know I've felt A little bit crazy I've forgotten what it means To be myself lately I don't think I can change I've been living in hell everyday I've been feeling Like hell anyway So I'm gonna write it down To express what I wanna say So I don't sound foolish to you I'm all ears please tell me What you want me to do I can hide so well In my shell of doom This room of treasure Is my empty tomb I'm looking for something Looking for hope My actions mean nothing I'm feeling so empty Can anyone save me Anyone save me Cover up the decay Put perfume on the stank But the smell remains Entrapped in the shame I am a wretch looking for change I could not save myself No matter my good My salvation's in someone else He sought out the lost Hung on a cross Bore my sins upon Himself After all that I've done I was His enemy Now I am His son I don't need your approval I'm a slave to the Christ The Holy One Looking only to the Groom Salvation's not found In an empty tomb Three day return policy No more about me Jesus Christ is King Not a clown not a monkey Performing hoping you'll accept me Hoping to hide in my doing So you will not see All the shame that I'm feeling I don't care if I'm weak Nah I don't care what you think Nah I am a child of God Living for Yah Holy Spirit in sync