So Cry

Why won't I release me? Why won't I release me? I'm stuck on the side of the boat I rode Have I gotten too far while still afloat? Should have been more careful with the boat I chose Got chills from the water I'm wading Lazy or recovering? Total apathy I need time to think It's a miracle I still got strength to be Fighting a line so gray Fighting a line so gray Fighting a line so gray Fighting a line so gray Fighting a line so gray Fighting a line so gray 'Cause I'm a mess Get that out of my head I know I could progress Could never get ahead I never wanted this I don't even recognize myself Steel my thoughts And I'm stressed Feelin' the world of pressure I know I started this Second guessed the effort To continue it Or be this way forever So, steel my thoughts Teleport me to year seventeen I had such control and clarity Set the standard high, its embarrassing How I lost it, trying So hard to over achieve And gave no credit to my suffering Poor body needed reprogramming Hold my rib cage, breathing Hold my rib cage, check my breathing Hold my rib cage, check my breathing Why won't I release me It's getting rough Peace of my mind, far from simple And I release me It's getting rough Peace of my mind, far from simple Far from simple Release me Release me