States

How does it feel to be young? Getting your foot in the door Greeting the ones who will own Now your sorry ass is up You tell yourself you're better Minus the fucking bad taste Might as well dip No way's a go, I've seen it for myself You can't tell me no, I've been there Losing my sack, crackhead offered me crack You can't tell me no, I've been there I don't want little demons in my hands Fucking up everything I've ever known I looked everywhere, everything is gone I'm left in a state where the air suppresses me Trap cycles trap, we are lost up till four in the morn' You can't tell me to grow, I've been scared Leaving out back, lined up to get shot down You can't tell me to grow, I've been scared (Gave it all to you Who cares about the past?) Momma just called and I didn't have shit to say Sometimes I hit the hay without asking about her day And I try my best to keep the food on her plate And a lot's happened lately that I've been in a confusional state Though I still be looking for ways to explain to myself And the cards I've dealt All the shit I've felt All the times I was alone 'cause I ain't seek any help I'm at a freak show state of mind and soon as the week's over I just smoke and pine See, the weed doesn't heal inside anymore It just numbs what I'm trying to hide from the folks for a minute Old and thinning, only 20 but I'm feeling finished Rushing through shit just to cop a feeling And the ceiling looking prettier to me Be good if I hooked this body to it Now what's the logic to this? Seems like the more I learn, there ain't an honest gesture to it Invested in depression 'cause all this knowledge is useless Truth is, I'm a byproduct, a nuisance Not intended but still the one for you, Shit Will I love myself tomorrow? If I feel him If I let him pull me down again You'll let him put me down again Never put it out again Never leave the house again