Pine Box Peace

It's funny that i'm still alive I thought that i'd be dead Through drug abuse, a hang man's noose A bullet through my head I'm waiting for this life to die For all this pain to cease All alone i've lived my life Now give me pine box peace Isolated in hollowness I sat in the dark to hide Rejection, failure, even sartre's "no exit" The sign said "suicide"... it's a joke I'm afraid, i'm terrified so i'll get myself a girl Still she shot me down and called me a clown Then she pissed on my small world This morning and the last i tried greeting god's new days But all this guilt from my past keeps leaving a bad taste I'll spit it out and try again, to get rid of this disease Yet not before i get high again And think of pine box peace