My Soul

I took roses shredded them on my paper Lilacs smell better But they die quicker so their smell won't matter later Patience Virtues Work on patience Loved ones love or love to hate them I know God has got a hold on me and I know Satan's getting dangerous I know I got Flames upon my blunt aiming at my mind Taming all the nerves that make the words that's questioning my life I go to bed and get disturbed inside and sleep deprived Probably cry forever if I had to put my weed aside Blame me not at all for myself and for my problems Slip your feet into my shoes and find there's no soul at the bottom Tell my dad that if he can croak over and die tonight he really should God just let me kill him without consequence I wish you would I just be thinking like who would I could have been If he didn't partake in the things he did I wonder am I is this who I am Never know what it's like to feel innocent See I have to get high before I get dick Just cause I can't erase all the images Think I'm living in spite it is what it is Cause he ruined my life but he's living his I cry cause I didn't have no jury Have no witnesses I cry cause that shit common But for me there's still a sicker twist Crying damn near every night and just because you fucked me up Somewhere in my mind I found some talent guess I'm lucking up Trust me I have every intention To piss you off when I mention you Get up under your skin til it eats you up and out in and through I'm disgusted to come from your nut I hope I'm offending you You ain't give me shit but hatred bitch and I ain't no kin to you God said here's a gift and it's called music And it'd be a sin if you didn't use it I know that your family got mad abusive Nobody was there trying to help you through it I said lord I didn't ask for this Help me try my best to stay close to you At least take the pain down a notch I can't take it I can't I just can't I can't I'm only 20 and I done been drinking for years Now tell me that shit ain't a problem Behind my smile I be screaming so loud How the f*ck you can't see that I'm bothered Give me an Oscar Acting calm collected When I'm actually temper tantrus Been neglected Post traumatic stress disorder if you want a fucking psychological expression I'm crumbling Nice ain't the way I'm gone go out Depression approaching me close but I'm not about to break down Hustling Struggling Hustling Struggling I need a way out my mind Thoughts in my head need a little direction My mirror fien for a happy reflection Who made me strive for my dreams of success It was me and that's it and I'm still fucking standing I can't f*ck with you but you respect me Cause you know that I'm still gonna demand it Hand me the crown I like to shine I'm the star that beautify the night Bring my own joy I deserve it and bitch I'm too fine to be crying Twinkle twinkle little star I'm About to steal a bit of your light Clock I'm tired of wasting your time God I'm walking in your line Row the boat and hope I don't wreck it Rough around the diamonds still precious Trauma shaped the shadow that's behind my potential I feel so florescent Twinkle twinkle little star I'm About to steal a bit of your light Clock I'm tired of wasting your time God I'm walking in your line Row the boat and hope I don't wreck it Rough around the diamonds still precious Trauma shaped the shadow that's behind my potential I feel so florescent