magic of adolescence

I could never get my shit together In a meaningful way that worked for me Shrugging off the mindless formalities And broken cognition that leaks from me And no matter how many times over This shit will bulldoze into you You say, what can you do? I once existed in a binary state With granite walls and an iron door I got so fucked up back then Now I don't cry, I just try to get by without death I got so fucked up by the things you said I peel back my skin to see what's underneath Pulling my blade out of its dusty sheath I'm ready to hurt, ready for it to work I wanna cut deep this time But something makes me stop