The Raindrop Diaries

I'll never regret any decision that I've made All the broken hearts and the girls that I've played cuz All they did was make me into who I am today and honestly I wouldn't have it any other way I was steady throwin' shade in the Red Light Kept my heart open to a possible bed wife Someone to talk to Maybe share my life but Karma's a bitch and She's been watching me closely Never knew if they chose me for my height or for my smile Gave a little piece of myself to make em smile At the price of my smile hid it all for a while That river and that tree have a place on my tile Take a look at me now, mom, look at me now Your little boy's all grown I've had some bad days but I made it on my own Kept a grin on my face, hard times never showin' The dark side of me Anything I would deem detrimental Never left a stain on my mental Ima let you see the window to my soul, light a candle Careful cuz my heart is full of staples, never handle it Camera lit Heaven sent apothecary tellin it, pessimist Weight so cold like the Antarctic But give me pen and a pad and ima bless it Took the prom queen to the back just to undress her Let me take a quick sip, cuz lately All that's on my mind is my baby, and maybe She's not even my baby I just think it's kind of crazy cuz this beat Is letting you see another side of me like Something I would write in a diary Like when she told me, Jay there's a new life in me, a side of me Wanted it gone, I had a life to lead Sorry if I sound cold-hearted, it was frightening Barely 16 I wasn't ready for that life but I cried when she told me she lost it The things on my mind are flowing out and in time I'll come to find That maybe that baby was when I lost it For real