Faded

3 am toss and turning with no sleep Wondering if there's something wrong with me Trynna find the meaning of life but I can't see Getting drunk every night to find peace I'm so faded, jaded, under rated,I can't take it Waited and waited, for something to change but Nothings changing it be staying the same so Feel like I'm stuck in a place I don't know I just wanna little taste on my own I've been trynna escape the unknown Mama called she afraid that I won't Damn I've been trynna fight the demons I been trynna meet the angels But I ain't seen a single sign yet On the table Say I'm losing my mind bet I know that I'm unstable Going crazy in my head So I'll take another shot I'm so faded, jaded, under rated,I can't take it Waited and waited, for something to change but Nothings changing it be staying the same so Feel like I'm stuck in a place I don't know I been battling my mental health More than anything and nothing else I just wanna beat that I can and never fail But that's a part of life we live and learn Through trials and tribulations Hella Stone cold miles just for dedication But I been going so wild they say I need some medication How the f*ck am I supposed to grow if I ain't elevated And taking these pills that change the way I feel so I can fake it I'm so faded, jaded, under rated,I can't take it Waited and waited, for something to change but Nothings changing it be staying the same so Feel like I'm stuck in a place I don't know Looking back when I was young I was happy before Now everyday it's like I'm numb and I can't take it no more I ain't trynna be bum on the streets that's all alone I just wanna be sum but I'm feeling all alone I'm so faded, jaded, under rated,I can't take it Waited and waited, for something to change but Nothings changing it be staying the same so Feel like I'm stuck in a place I don't know