Depression

My depression is killing me I can't live with myself Can't fight these demons and monsters no more I am begging you for help I just wanna sleep Cause when I'm awake, it's the pain in my heart that is killin' me Overthinking's a drug that is drillin' these Obtrusive thoughts and emotions that I can't control and should be not be responsible for That I am trying to leave at my door And I swore to my therapist, told her that I'll be okay But I'm not, and I knew it, was standing there lying right to her face So I lay in my bed, as my head hits the pillow I'm mentally drained, battery at zero As I ask my enemy... brain Should we continue? I'm praying to every god, allow me to sleep I've tried counting sheep I've steadied my breath, but I keep Remembering me The person that I hate the most, so please Help Please My depression is killing me I can't live with myself Can't fight these demons and monsters no more I am begging you for help I just wanna know, is anyone out there alive that is feeling the same That wakes up ashamed That doesn't disclose all their pain How do you deal with it, how do you cope? Cause I am anxiety's gigolo, now she is making me buy her some rope Do you focus on breathing? Or are you just always distracting your mind? Is there anyone out there relating who managed to live and is loving their life I think it is time I'm selling what's left of my soul to the devil and asking for fame in exchange ID'ing the Mike (mic) as I'm passing the rock cause I haven't got many plays left on the Page I'm giving my life, to the evilest guy so that others can always be spared Cause I could not think, of a worse of a thing than a teenager being this scared I'm hoping that god can forgive me, this pain that I'm feeling is brutal, it's way too intense But I know she will, cause she burdened me with it that bitch she was charging me rent To live in my head Not dollars but cents (sense) I'm sorry, but I think that I would be happier dead My depression is killing me I can't live with myself Can't fight these demons and monsters no more I am begging you for help I want this pain to end, I want it all to fade away I want to end it all, give me a reason I should stay I think I'm done with life, gave it my hardest try Everything I've ever done, simply's not good enough I know what you will say, the sun shines after rain But I'm out here stuck in a storm, and when it rains it pours Is anybody out there? Do you know what I'm going through? Can anybody save me, from doing something irreversible... cause My depression is killing me I can't live with myself Can't fight these demons and monsters no more I am begging you for help Please